My Daddy

I just found out that my co-workers dad died today. It brought a tear to my eyes and made me all sad and sore. Cause for some reason I am so emotional when I think about my father's death.

Last week my dad got really ill. He had a high fever when he was in school in Tartu. We talked in msn and he said that if it does not get better, he will come home the next day.

The next day my sister told me that she saw in her dream that dad died. It made me cry right there. At work, behind my desk. Luckily noone was there to see it. He was home the next day, it didn't get a lot better. I was worried. A lot.

But he recovered and feels great now.

Just the thought of him dying brings the tears to my eyes and lowers the corners of my mouth. I don't want him to die. I'm not ready for it. I love him too much to let him go. He is the dearest and bestest dad I know.

I just love him!

I wish I had a better ability to show my affection and love towards the people I love and care for...

Tell your daddy you love him! Today! He knows it but it's always good to hear it over and over again!

God bless every good dad in this world!

Friends - what a blessing!!!

I've realized I take some people for granted. Why in the world? It takes an effort to be my friend. It takes time and patience to be my friend. It takes a lot of God's love to be my friend.

I thank each and everyone who's been my friend throughout the years, and of course the most recent ones, too (You know who you are! :)).

I got a letter from my dear friend yesterday. It's such an encouragement to read that she's been constantly praying for me. Isn't it wonderful to get such news? I think it is.

It makes me want to give out more to my friends. It makes me want to hug everyone - gosh, I'm stuck at work right now.

If I see you and don't hug you, it's not that I don't want to. It's just that I feel awkward, cause I don't hug that much. Just come and hug me and I'll hug back as best as I can. Cause I want to share my love for you.

If you haven't received a letter from me through regular mailing system in a long time or at all: Send me an email or just give your address on a piece of paper and I'll write you - it's that simple! It's what I do. Ask from people that know me. I just posted 25 letters today. IT'S WHAT I DO!!! Got it? ;)

Anyways.

I was talking to a friend today and he said he had an argument with one other Christian about the saying "Once saved always saved". That the Christian came to Christ but is still living sinful life. What in the world?

Isn't He, our Saviour, our Best Friend of all? Why do we struggle to please Him? Why do we turn our back on Him? Why do we not give attention to Him, the One that deserves it the most? Do we do that to our friends on Earth? It's not a one way friendship, we ought to know that. You do know that, right?

It's Christmas. It's the celebration of our Best Friend's birthday. What do you normally do when it's your friend's birthday? Are you expecting presents from him/her? I don't think so. Have you ever thought of what you're expecting from your friend who you're visiting on his/her birthday? Good food (definitely), good time, lots of laughing and a little attention back? And most of all the graditude for being his/her friend. Right? Lets face it, it's the truth.

What are we expecting from our Best Friend? I challenge you by saying that basically the same we're expecting from the birthday kid on Earth. Do we not get that? I think we do. And much more. Jesus wants to bless as soooo much and give the stuff we need. It's just that He wants to have a normal give-and-take relationship (It's just my understanding, I know He often gives when we're total.......not good friends to Him).

I invite you to give Him the attention He deserves instead of thinking what am I getting out of this friendship with Jesus. Give Him the love, the laugh, the attention without any premises.

Wow, my pondering turned out a long one. Sorry. I DO think a lot AND write a lot.

Soooo, to sum it up: I want to hug you! And I want you and me to hug Jesus for who He is! :)

Natuke nalja ja ära tundmist

Leidsin sellise vahva saate ETV kodulehelt.

Kelle laul on lauldud. Paroodia. Linnateatri näitlejatelt.

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The one question

I've discovered that I have few readers that don't understand Estonian. So I'll write some posts in English, if it's not too deep and difficult to write in English. :)

Anyways.

I have this hobby: postcrossing. I've always wanted to write something that is not just "Happy postcrossing!". And now I'm asking every receiver the following question:

If you could have one gift this Christmas that did not have any limitations, what would it be?

So far I've received one answer to that: to celebrate Christmas with my family, to be healthy and all the best for 2010!



Pretty good. My dad said that he would like to have a new VW transporter. The rest of us tried to explain him that there are NOOOOO limitations. The new car seems to be pretty unreachable and yet it is soooo needed. Oh well. It's one of my prayer list for some time now.

I'm finding that it is really hard to answer. I struggle with selfishness. If I had the one wish I should wish something good to happen to the whole world. Like peace on Earth or no hunger or no sicknesses etc.

Let's say that this is my first choice. What would it be when I can have that one gift for me? And again it's a struggle. I feel like what ever I wished for, God already has planned for me and all I have to do is wait and see. A good husband, nice family, a house, the car etc. You know? When I think about the plan that God has for me (which I don't know anything about that much), I feel confident. But when I look at where I am now, I don't have that much confidence about the future. Very controversial, don't you think?

What would it be for you? Or even if you can't see above the limitations: what would you like to have for Christmas this year?

Or lets put it the other way: If you had no limitations of giving someone else a gift then what would it be?

I think that's sort of easy for me: I wish that my parents had their own house, nice and comfortable and big enough to host all his grown-up kids! :)

What you?

Ootusärevus

Nii palju on viimasel ajal räägitud Eestis tärkavast ärkamisest. Õige pea, õige pea. See tekitab nii palju ärevust. Minus vähemalt.

Esinesime gospelkooriga GLSil ja peale seda tuli üks pastor meie juurde ja sosistas kõrva, et sel ajal kui me laulsime, nägi tema ilmutust, et Eestis tuleb ärkamine ja meie koor on justkui selle keskmes. Huuhhh, päris vägev värk, või mis?! Üldse on meie koorile nii palju sellist „head“ räägitud. Ise mõtlen küll, et tobe, me peaks veel harjutama ja veel julgemad olema laulda südamest ja tunnistada südamest, millest laulame.

Ja klikk – that’s the point ju. Meis endis on see miski, mis ergutab meid olema julgemad ja meis endis on see „püha rahulolematus“, et me ei saa jääda argadeks, endasse tõmbunud kristlasteks. Justkui üks uus hingamine Kristuses. Justkui selline rõõm on olla kristlane paganate seas ja igatsus jagada seda rõõmu.

Nädal aega tagasi oli minu juures kodugrupp, kus külas olid kaks inglise härrasmeest. Iga kord kui nad on käinud, nad on ka prohveteerinud meile. Seekordki tegid nad seda väga võimsalt. Selles kodugrupis nad rääkisid ja õpetasid, kuidas meiegi seda teha saaksime ja kui oluline see tegelikult koguduse jaoks on, et me üksteisele prohveteeriksime. Väga huvitav.

Ma ei hakka praegu seda lahkama, kes kui palju prohveteeris ja kuidas see käib, vaid räägin sellest, mida seal inimestele prohveteeriti. See õhtu lisas ainult õli tulle ja minu ootusärevus tuleviku ees aina kasvas.

Nimelt pea kõigile öeldi seda, et praegu on üks suur ettevalmistuse aeg millekski suureks. Praegu on see aeg, kus me peame eriliselt otsima Jumalat, lugema Tema sõna, saama targaks sõnas ja vaimus, tugevdama/täiendama oma sõjavarustust.

Ja huvitav on see, et kõikidele tuli sõna, et nad on kas millegi vägeva liidrid või on nad sellised tugipunktid/tugisambad, kellele saab alati loota ja kelle poole pöörduda.

Ja taaskord öeldi väga selgelt välja, et Eestis tuleb ärkamine. Suur ärkamine. Minu sisse on tulnud juba suur ärevus. Sellest võiks üks ärkamine tulla küll. :)

Nüüd on vaja veel seda isiklikku panust oma isiklikku suhtesse Jumalaga, mis võiks olla ka indikatsiooniks Jumala armastuse levimisele. Mõnus ju nii mõelda. Mina saan Jumalat nii palju täis, et ma saan Teda jagada kellegagi, kellel pole üldse. Ja ma ei saa sinna midagi parata. Ma ei saa Teda ainult enda sees hoida. Mõnus.

Reaalsuses on praegu asjad nii, et tahaksin ise sellise inimese kõrval olla, nii et ta jagaks mulle. Tegelikult peaksin ise võtma. Ma ju tean kust ja kuidas saab. Ometi ju.

Igatahes. Normal.

Let’s do this!

You with me?

Rohkelt Jumala õnnistusi Sulle!!!